I remember when I first started blogging back in 2011 and I used to do a lot of these kind of posts where I can write freely. It’s true, back in the day, I had more time as well.
Now, 7 years after I managed to have a well established blog, people constantly reading it.. others just following me on other platforms wether is fashion ones or Facebook.. Twitter… and of course, the most “important” of them all, Instagram. This Instagram that has become a trading coin for almost everything nowadays. To be honest, it’s the least of my favorite platforms. Why ? It has become something so “analytic” so “accurate”… this killing the creation of content itself. You’re not even focused on the photo… you have to plan the posting at specific hours, pay attention to hashtags, invest in Giveaways, monitor your audience, block fake followers.. etc etc etc… it’s a drag and the more followers you have, the less popular you are.
You may wonder why I’m saying that. It’s pretty simple. When you have a normal life, you work somewhere, for a company for instance – you have colleagues, you have friends… this whole “influence” that you’re getting on Instagram is killing each and every one of your friends. People by nature, no matter how honest they seem at first, they will never want to see you succeed too much. Speaking from personal experience, once you gain “fame” (and I’m putting fame in quotation mark cause I don’t feel famous; never have, never will) , they start envying you. It’s stupid, of course… along with being a blogger, sure, you have a fun life, you go to cool events, meet people, receive stuff… etc etc.. it’s nice, I won’t lie, but it’s not like I’m waking up with Lambos et Bugattis in the morning. And even if I would wake up to that, I don’t give a rat’s ass…
So yes, people start to ignore you, to speak about you around the corner or just do crappy things to make you feel bad about who you are and what you do.
For instance, if I go at a place, I never say I’m a blogger… you can see how immediately they search on their phone who you are, how many followers you have and starting there, they treat you differently. I don’t want to be treated differently, I want the normal experience so I can share with my readers the normal truth, not some deviated posh version.
And it’s so hard to find real friends as it is… I just don’t want to wake up with people who just envy me and who just stick around to get the benefits of what my “job” has to offer. I’m a Scorpio and by my nature, I avoid people as much as I can and I rarely mistake fake friends for real ones, but that has happened to me on a few occasions and it hurts. Sometimes I just look into the future and I imagine that in the end I’ll just end up alone by fear of not trusting anyone anymore.
I’m just curious, if you’re reading this and you find yourself in my position, how do you cope with it all?